Only a Kiss (The Survivors' Club, #6)Only a Kiss by Mary Balogh
My rating: 2 of 5 stars

How dreadfully boring.

In terms of characterization, it was solid. In terms of characters, oh my, this book was drowning in it. It was endless (and occasionally repetitive) descriptions of family relations, landscapes, and plans of actions in the characters' heads. Perhaps, it's a necessity to make it appeared like time is passing, but I can care less. I skipped over the a great number of paragraphs when they became too excessive. Even the philosophical passages got too preachy for me and it was one of the factors that severed my emotional responses to the characters' struggles.

I repeat: I was bored out of my mind. If only I had hated this book, but I didn't.

"But I would rather you hated me," he added. "There is passion in hatred."

I couldn't agree more.
A Monster CallsA Monster Calls by Patrick Ness
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

"Here is the hardest hit of all, O'Malley," Harry said. "Here is the very worst thing I can do to you."


"Good-bye, O'Malley," Harry said, looking into Conor's eyes. "I no longer see you."

Why did this make me tear up all over again? I'm just bitter, hateful, accepting, and relieved all at the same time. This was a painful read and I wanted to get it over with. I wanted not to understand the stories that the monster told Conor. I wanted monsters, destruction, and nightmares not to be real. I wanted it gone and over. Did that make me a bad person? Did it make Conor a bad person? NO. Bless fucking human emotions. Just bless the intricate network of how and what we think, feel, and do.

This book understands me. This book speaks the words I always tell myself. This book comes from a place of truth.

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Meghan Chase has a secret destiny; one she could never have imagined.

Something has always felt slightly off in Meghan's life, ever since her father disappeared before her eyes when she was six. She has never quite fit in at school or at home.

When a dark stranger begins watching her from afar, and her prankster best friend becomes strangely protective of her, Meghan senses that everything she's known is about to change.

But she could never have guessed the truth - that she is the daughter of a mythical faery king and is a pawn in a deadly war. Now Meghan will learn just how far she'll go to save someone she cares about, to stop a mysterious evil, no faery creature dare face; and to find love with a young prince who might rather see her dead than let her touch his icy heart.


The Iron King (The Iron Fey #1) by Julie Kagawa

Published February 1st, 2010 by Harlequin Teen
Genre: Fantasy
Rating: 2 Stars
Reviewed on March 31, 2016
This review can also be founds on Goodreads.


My Review

A Bitchy Review with the help of the Criminal Minds Cast

I would love to take Morgan's advice and behave myself right now, but "censor" is not part of my vocabulary. As bad as I make it sound, The Iron King wasn't that awful. However, the book would be the makings of an awful series if the author was to keep up the romance.

Sagging down the wall, I pulled my knees to my chest and joined them in their grieving, feeling I'd left my heart in the tunnel where Ash had fallen.

No, bitch. I. AM. SO. DONE. WITH YOU. I can not believe for a second that Meghan was romantically attached to Ash. There was nothing authentic about the development of their attraction to each other.

To top it off, lines that would normally pull at my heart strings made me roll my eyes.

"You made me feel alive."

something, something, something "you remind me of her. my dead girlfriend."
(I won't waste my time looking for the original line.)

I don't buy the romance. The near-death experiences and the attempted-rape incident that brought Ash and Meghan "closer together" was a cheap and shitty way to do it.

Please go back to killing each other.

I can only imagine how Meghan's unbelievable affection will escalate to obsession. And omg, he soda betrayys her, and she's like, like hurt, and shocked and like isn't their love supposed to defy the world, and it's soda funny her reaction. Lololol through tears.

Please stop there -.- I don't need your love story.

Now that I'm done trashing the romance, let's get to the good part. The technology concept obviously. At first, I was iffy about the Fae coexisting with the modern world, so color me impressed because I did not expect the direction The Iron King would take. I should have taken the title literally.

The downside: I didn't plunge into the faerie world. It was just there. The storytelling/setting was messy to follow (for instance, when the first Iron King popped up out of nowhere??? and all these other scenes). The writing was passable.

My empathy and sense of urgency were nonexistent, from when Meghan's brother was kidnapped to when her supposedly-best-friend Puck was punished for aiding in her quest. Did I ever fucking care? Did Meghan care? The only time I felt something was when the family dog was wrongly accused and put down. I was heartbroken.

The bright side: Meghan was naïve. She wasn't an ass-kicking fighter. She was dumb as fuck, but I tolerated it because she was a teenager in desperate need of connection.

And she ended up falling for Ash, much to my dismay. She sure knows how to choose them. *applauds* I mean, it wasn't enough that your crush in the beginning called you a bitch and you still wanted to be with him, but now you're pinning after an enemy who wants to kill you? Way to take it up a notch!

Gurlfriend, you're too emotionally immature to be in a relationship. Get real.

Nonetheless . . . even though Meghan had her flaws and I can appreciate that, she was as one-dimensional as the rest of the characters.

I may or may not give the second book a chance to flesh out the characters because I just don't care for them. Only the progression of the plot will change my mind. And no, do not give me that line, "Oh, but it gets better." I heard the same thing about Throne of Glass and The Grisha, but noooooo, my friends fooled me one too many times. I can't fangirl over the same books when I utterly detest them.

Please let me live my life in peace. I want to invest my time and energy in something promising.


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The good news is that the USA is finally out of debt. The bad news is that we were bought out by Valor National Bank, and debtors are the new big game, thanks to a tricky little clause hidden deep in the fine print of a credit card application. Now, after a swift and silent takeover that leaves 9-1-1 calls going through to Valor voicemail, they’re unleashing a wave of anarchy across the country.

Patsy didn’t have much of a choice. When the suits showed up at her house threatening to kill her mother then and there for outstanding debt unless Patsy agreed to be an indentured assassin, what was she supposed to do? Let her own mother die?

Patsy is forced to take on a five-day mission to complete a hit list of ten names. Each name on Patsy's list has only three choices: pay the debt on the spot, agree to work as a bounty hunter, or die. And Patsy has to kill them personally, or else her mom takes a bullet of her own.

Since yarn bombing is the only rebellion in Patsy's past, she’s horrified and overwhelmed, especially as she realizes that most of the ten people on her list aren't strangers. Things get even more complicated when a moment of mercy lands her with a sidekick: a hot rich kid named Wyatt whose brother is the last name on Patsy's list. The two share an intense chemistry even as every tick of the clock draws them closer to an impossible choice.

Delilah S. Dawson offers an absorbing, frightening glimpse at a reality just steps away from ours—a taut, suspenseful thriller that absolutely mesmerizes from start to finish.


Hit (Hit #1) by Delilah S. Dawson

Published April 14th, 2015 by Simon Pulse
Genre: Dystopia
Rating: 3 Stars
Reviewed on March 24, 2016
This review can also be founds on Goodreads.


My Review

I am indecisive about how to feel about the plot. It makes sense, but at the same time, it's not a believable pre-dystopia world for me. Not that I'm saying the possibility can't be real because I do love how this book is like a slap to the materialistic society in America.

The events fucked up the heroine. She wasn't some kid that the author forced to possess a bravado just so nothing could tear the heroine down. She had to make hard and reckless choices, and she acted and reacted realistically. She broke down, but she kept going too. However, I got too easily bored with her narration and the attempts at humor. She makes so many metaphors/similes throughout the story that reading it was like swallowing sand. Dry and mundane.
How fucking interesting. Now can you move on.
Other than that, I liked her portrayal as a struggling teenager.

It's funny how I warmed up to the romance right away, even though it was illogical. Someone kills your dad (even if you don't like your dad) in cold blood and you're going to go and risk your life for her? Wtf? That's just twisted. Still, it was a bit funny how it played out. My favorite scene: the boner scene. It was wonderfully awkward ;)

Back to the plot: I thought Hit was a standalone when I first started reading. Seeing how there were only more questions, it was frustrating. I'm not intrigued and I won't read the sequel.


My Rating

End of Days is the explosive conclusion to Susan Ee’s bestselling Penryn & the End of Days trilogy. After a daring escape from the angels, Penryn and Raffe are on the run. They’re both desperate to find a doctor who can reverse the twisted changes inflicted by the angels on Raffe and Penryn’s sister. As they set off in search of answers, a startling revelation about Raffe’s past unleashes dark forces that threaten them all.

When the angels release an apocalyptic nightmare onto humans, both sides are set on a path toward war. As unlikely alliances form and strategies shift, who will emerge victorious? Forced to pick sides in the fight for control of the earthly realm, Raffe and Penryn must choose: Their own kind, or each other?


End of Days (Penryn & the End of Days #3) by Susan Ee

Published May 12th, 2015 by Skyscape
Genre: Paranormal, Dysopia
Rating: 2 Stars
Reviewed on February 28, 2016
This review can also be founds on Goodreads.


My Review

As far as I'm concerned, End of Days is a feast of gore and action that made my eyes want to sag out and take a vacation. Not to mention the angel politics were laughable, the dumpy information about the pit bored me, and Penryn sounded monotone most of the times. This book was underwhelming as fuck.

Just disappointed.


My Rating

Once upon a time, a girl had a father, a prince, a society of friends. Then they betrayed her, and she destroyed them all.

Adelina Amouteru’s heart has suffered at the hands of both family and friends, turning her down the bitter path of revenge. Now known and feared as the White Wolf, she flees Kenettra with her sister to find other Young Elites in the hopes of building her own army of allies. Her goal: to strike down the Inquisition Axis, the white-cloaked soldiers who nearly killed her.

But Adelina is no heroine. Her powers, fed only by fear and hate, have started to grow beyond her control. She does not trust her newfound Elite friends. Teren Santoro, leader of the Inquisition, wants her dead. And her former friends, Raffaele and the Dagger Society, want to stop her thirst for vengeance. Adelina struggles to cling to the good within her. But how can someone be good when her very existence depends on darkness?


The Rose Society (The Young Elites #2) by Marie Lu

Published October 23rd, 2015 by G.P. Putnam's Sons Books for Young Readers
Genre: Fantasy
Rating: 3 Stars
Reviewed on February 26, 2016
This review can also be founds on Goodreads.


My Review

I Scream "Bloody Murder" Three Stars!

Adelina, your insides are dark nasty. If all these fuckers want a real bitch, seriously, get in line for The Rose Society. There is no room for guilt. I can not begin to express the delight that the revenges, the horror, and character deaths brought me. Oh, the action was glorious and I was stuffing my mouth with cookies while losing myself in the ending. And now I shall wait for more destruction.

On a less vicious note: I'm trying very hard to be impressed by The Rose Society. For one, I'm not a fan of the writing and I tended to pick on sentences here and there. In other words, "if it sounds like writing, you should rewrite it." Secondly, I had no emotional investment in these characters, their backstories, and their personalities (or lack thereof). Most of them were just there. Mainly, it was only their powers and goals that pushed me to keep reading. Thirdly, I didn't care for Enzo in the previous book and I sure as hell don't care for him now. Neither do I care about any other love interests. Last of all, I hope I'll care enough to read the final installment. I don't want it to ruin the lovely memory of having such a dark and fucked-up villain as our leading character. Long live, The White Wolf! I just want to watch the world burn. *crackles with evil laughter*

“But true rulers are not born. We are made.”
“It is better to have an enemy who will fight you in an open field then a lover who will kill you in your sleep.”


My Rating

Miss Linnet Berry Thrynne is a Beauty . . . Naturally, she's betrothed to a Beast.

Piers Yelverton, Earl of Marchant, lives in a castle in Wales where, it is rumored, his bad temper flays everyone he crosses. And rumor also has it that a wound has left the earl immune to the charms of any woman.

Linnet is not just any woman.

She is more than merely lovely: her wit and charm brought a prince to his knees. She estimates the earl will fall madly in love—in just two weeks.

Yet Linnet has no idea of the danger posed to her own heart by a man who may never love her in return.

If she decides to be very wicked indeed . . . what price will she pay for taming his wild heart?


When Beauty Tamed the Beast by Eloisa James

Published January 25th, 2011 by Avon
Genre: Historical Romance
Rating: 2 Stars
Reviewed on February 3, 2016
This review can also be founds on Goodreads.


My Review

After Reading:

This is, by far, not the worst EJ book I've read. It was pretty decent and the chemistry was passable. However, while I was pulled in by the witty banter, the over-the-top dialogs got on my nerves, and reading became a snooze. Piers lived up to being Beastly/House though and that's a winner.

Also, when it comes to romance, I'm not a fan of multi-povs that includes side-characters too. It's a waste of pages. Just my two cents.

Before Reading:

I know what you're thinking: "Cee, why are you reading this book when over and over again in every EJ book you read, you established the characters are always lusty imbeciles because EJ didn't upgrade in either 2003 or 2015?"

I know, I know, sue me, but hear me out. Khanh likes this book and I'm willing to give EJ the benefit of the doubt. And did I mention the hero is supposedly the Regency House?

Don't expect me to say no to THAT?

If it happens that I don't like this EJ book either, I promise to be civil but still remain critical.


My Rating

Genius physics professor Dr. Jane Darlington desperately wants a baby. But finding a father won’t be easy. Jane’s super-intelligence made her feel like a freak when she was growing up, and she’s determined to spare her own child that suffering. Which means she must find someone very special to father her child. Someone who’s more comfortable working out his muscles than exercising his brain.

Cal Bonner, the Chicago Stars’ legendary quarterback, seems like the perfect choice. But his champion good looks and down-home ways are deceiving. Dr. Jane is about to learn a little too late that this good ol’ boy is a lot smarter than he lets on—and he’s not about to be used and abandoned by a brainy, baby-mad schemer.



Nobody's Baby But Mine by Susan Elizabeth Phllips

Published February 1st 1997 by Avon Books
Genre: Contemporary
Rating: 2 Stars
Reviewed on December 16, 2015
This review can also be founds on Goodreads.


My Review

If you think the picture above has no relations to the story, you're wrong. Dr. Jane Darlington was out to get Calvin Bonner's Lucky Charms and I mean, both his sperm and the cereal.

The "Cereal Killer" bit was funny, I'll give it that. I'm laughing right now just thinking about it.

However, Nobody's Baby But Mine just really bugs me. The supposedly-intelligent "Dumbington" was too stupid and her logic made no sense. "Boner" was too emotionally immature. And I lost my fucks to give by the end of the book. It was too long and could have been cut down by a considerable amount.

Granted, I'll be generous and offer 2 "It was okay" stars. I didn't like the book. I didn't hate it either.         


My Rating

Reality, it turns out, is often not what you perceive it to be—sometimes, there really is someone out to get you. Made You Up tells the story of Alex, a high school senior unable to tell the difference between real life and delusion. This is a compelling and provoking literary debut that will appeal to fans of Wes Anderson, Silver Linings Playbook, and Liar.

Alex fights a daily battle to figure out the difference between reality and delusion. Armed with a take-no-prisoners attitude, her camera, a Magic 8-Ball, and her only ally (her little sister), Alex wages a war against her schizophrenia, determined to stay sane long enough to get into college. She’s pretty optimistic about her chances until classes begin, and she runs into Miles. Didn't she imagine him? Before she knows it, Alex is making friends, going to parties, falling in love, and experiencing all the usual rites of passage for teenagers. But Alex is used to being crazy. She’s not prepared for normal.

Funny, provoking, and ultimately moving, this debut novel featuring the quintessential unreliable narrator will have readers turning the pages and trying to figure out what is real and what is made up.


Made You up by Francesca Zappia

Published May 19th 2015 by Greenwillow Books
Genre: Contemporary
Rating: 2 Stars
Reviewed on December 15, 2015
This review can also be founds on Goodreads.


My Review

How I know my Magic 8 Ball is reliable

*Before Reading*

Cee: Magic 8 Ball, will Made You Up try to kill me?

Magic 8 Ball: Concentrate and ask again.

Cee: You know? The kind where a book sucks the soul out of you, drop by drop, until you're on the floor rolling around in your own filth because you both love and hate yourself for picking up this book in the first place?

Magic 8 Ball: Reply haze. Try again later.

Cee: Can you at least tell me if I'll like it or not?

Magic 8 Ball: Outlook not so good.

*After Reading* *will contain spoilers*

Cee: Do I think this book is cute?

Magic 8 Ball: My reply is no.

Cee: Do I think this book is angsty?

Magic 8 Ball: My sources say no.

Cee:Do you know why?

Magic 8 Ball: Don't count on it.

Cee: This is one of those times when a WRITER SHOULD WRITE WHAT THEY KNOW. If you plan to read Made You Up, do your research first so you aren't force-fed lies because anyone these days can slap mental illness onto the pages of a romance novel. Made You Up did not give me insight into schizophrenia. It made schizophrenia look like a pretentious illness with a stick up its ass. And believe me, saying this makes me feel like the asshole here. I don't claim to know jack squat about schizophrenia, but it doesn't take a genius to figure out that Alex didn't fit the bill. Let's give credit where credit is due— Francesca Zappia sure knows how to be crafty with mental illness because if I could create my own symptoms and get a kick out of making a book "fun," I probably would. Then I would cross my fingers and hope all of my readers swoon over my quirky and oh-so-intelligent characters. Yayy!

And as if the misrepresentation of mental illness, the boring characters, and the absentminded plot weren't enough to irked me, there was Charlie. I smelled that bullshit from hundreds of pages away and when shit hit the fan, I had to roll my eyes and skimmed the drama. She was a cheap tool to create angst. She really fucking was.

So there you have it. I had high expectations for Made You Up. I wanted it to challenge me on many levels from intellectual to emotional to morally, but the book fell flat and was too predictable and fake for me to give a rat's ass about it. It was like somebody trolled on my nonexistent feels.

In closing, my Magic 8 Ball is smarter than this book. Don't you agree?

Magic 8 Ball: Without a doubt.


My Rating

Alexis Wyndham is the other type of Queen B—the Queen Bitch.

After years of being the subject of ridicule, she revels in her ability to make the in-crowd cower via the exposés on her blog, The Eastline Spy. Now that she's carved out her place in the high school hierarchy, she uses her position to help the unpopular kids walking the hallways.

Saving a freshman from bullies? Check.
Swapping insults with the head cheerleader? Check.
Falling for the star quarterback? So not a part of her plan.

But when Brett offers to help her solve the mystery of who’s posting X-rated videos from the girls’ locker room, she’ll have to swallow her pride and learn to see past the high school stereotypes she’s never questioned—until now.


Confessions of a Queen B* by Crista McHugh

Published July 28th 2015 by Crista McHugh
Genre: Contemporary
Rating: 1 Star
Reviewed on December 1, 2015
This review can also be founds on Goodreads.


My Review

Confessions of a Queen B* is not worthy of praise. It shouldn't even be worthy of this review, but hell, I'm not going to sugarcoat.

It wasn't sassy. It wasn't smart. It wasn't a thriller. It wasn't an awesome bitch. It wasn't fun.

It was ridiculous, shallow, degrading, cliché, and a waste of my time.

From the premise, I expected a mystery that would keep me on the edge of my seat, but I'm 100% certain I wasn't even reading the same story. This is a poor imitation of thrilling and mysterious. It's downright a lesser version of anything or as one of my reviewer friends once put it "the ugly stepsister." Mean Girls should feel insulted and that's saying something because I don't even like that movie.

If you want sassy, bitchy, bossy, and intelligent, look up Veronica Mars. Now there goes one hell of a girl who knows how to intimidate and rock your mind.


My Rating

When Emily Wayborn receives an answerphone message from her former best friend Amber, she knows something is seriously wrong. Emily hasn't spoken to Amber in years, and when Amber uses a safe word in her message that Emily recognises -- a word they always used to get out of sticky situations during their wild partying days -- she knows Amber needs her help. But when Emily tries to find her, she discovers that Amber is missing.

Determined to track her down, Emily follows a chain of clues that lead her to enigmatic billionaire Reeve Sallis. Renowned for his shady dealings and playboy reputation, Emily is convinced that Reeve knows something about Amber's disappearance. To try and discover the truth, Emily sets out to seduce him. But when she's forced to decide where her loyalty lies, how will Emily choose between saving Amber and saving her heart?

If you devoured Fifty Shades and Sylvia Day's Bared To You series, you will love the latest intoxicating, passionate and addictive novel from New York Times bestseller Laurelin Paige.


 First Touch (First and Last #1) by Laurelin Paige

Expected publication: December 22nd 2015 by St. Martin's Griffin
Genre: Dark Romance, Erotica, Thriller, Mystery, Suspense,
Rating: None Available
Reviewed on December 1, 2015
This review can also be founds on Goodreads.


My Review

Run. That's my advice: Run.

If you're looking to have your 20/20 vision splattered with blood, spit, and semen, then take this book and have your way with it.

If not, run.

Seriously. I am compelled to throw in some repulsive and graphic gifs in my review just for good measure.

First Touch is going to haunt me at night. Maybe even you. I won't give away anything specific in my review; not a single thing. All I want to do is forget this book and I ever happened.

I wasn't prepared for how dark and sexual First Touch was going to be. It was basically a dark erotica book with mystery thrown in it, but unlike many erotica books, the writing was good, not choppy and pretentious, and it didn't read like a trashy novel. However, the plot itself . . . I was expecting something that would blow me away, but this book was focused on the sex. The sexing was endless and it made me forgot why I was reading in the first place. "Like wasn't there a mystery to solve? Didn't you have a friend missing?" I'm not saying the female lead didn't get answers because she did, but I wished there was less sex. And I wish they had promoted this book as a (VERY) dark erotica because if it hadn't been promoted as a "romance suspense," I wouldn't have waited months to read it (since March, to be specific), thinking I would get one hell of a good thriller.

Colored me red. I was angry, frustrated, and disgusted. Yet I couldn't bring myself to waste my time with judging the characters and instead chose to remain indifferent to their depraving ways (failing at times when I screamed from rage or shock). I've never seen characters as corrupted and un-sugarcoated as theses ones, believe me, which is something I appreciated but I didn't have to like it. Everything that was said and done in this book should have appalled me into running away, but somehow every time I found myself wanting to put it down, the desire for knowledge overpowered my good senses. I went too deep, too far. Oh, the fucking abuse and the sex and the glorification, oh my gawd, spare me now. My eyes and brains are done. I've sedated my curiosity and although the ending gave me one hell of a cliffhanger, a rather predictable one if you ask me, and I don't think I have the power to read the next book since it doesn't suit my preferences.

But then again, that cliffhanger though. Let's see if I'm still interested if I remember this series when it's closer to the publication date. I know I'll hate myself more, but I already do now after finishing First Touch, word for word, even when I wanted to claw my eyes out for the guilt. I was punishing myself and I shouldn't any longer.

An ARC from NG in exchange for an honest review.


My Rating

None Available.
Brash, cocky, and unbeatable with a sword (well, almost), Sam of Haywood is the most promising Paladin trainee in the kingdom of Thule… and knows it. The only problem is that Sam is really Lady Samantha, daughter of the seventeenth Duke of Haywood, and if her father has his way, she’ll be marrying a Paladin, not becoming one.

But Sam has never held much interest in playing damsel-in-distress, and so she rescues herself from a lifetime of boredom and matrimonial drudgery. Disguised as a boy, Sam leaves home behind to fight demons-—the most dangerous monsters in Thule—-alongside the kingdom’s elite warriors. Pity that Tristan Lyons, the Paladin assigned to train her, is none other than the hero of her childhood. He hasn’t recognized her–yet–but if he does, he’ll take away her sword and send her packing.

Sam is not the only trainee hiding secrets: Braeden is a half-demon with a dark past that might be unforgivable. Whether he can be trusted is anyone’s guess, including his.

As demons wreak havoc across the land, rebellion stirs in the West, led by a rival faction of warriors.


Paladin by Sally Slater

Published May 14th 2015 by Perfect Analogy Publishing
Genre: Fantasy
Rating: None Available
Reviewed on November 29, 2015
This review can also be founds on Goodreads.


My Review

Unrated Review Because the Stars Don't Matter

Judging from its cover and Goodreads summary, Paladin was not what I pictured, which is quite frustrating to say when these words border right between positivity and negativity. My judgment can tip over to any side, so here's my mixed opinion of the good and bad:

The whole girl-disguises-as-boy-to-fight has been done countless times in the fantasy genre and this book won't stand out.

The writing was too simplistic and dull for my taste, but at least time and effort wasn't wasted on pointless descriptions.

The action scenes don't play out to the point of mind-numbing exhaustion.

The plot is driven by the main characters traveling from place to place. Although I love adventures, it was a chore sometimes to care where they were at and where they were going next.

Last but not least, the characters' interactions were engaging, but at times, it got too cheesy for me and there were a few parts I would deemed as unnecessary filler scenes. Especially when it came to the developing romance with its cliché dialogs.

ARC provided through Netgalley in exchange for an honest review.

My Rating

None Available.